I'd Lie~

"He sees everything in black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

He stands there, then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breath for you

He'd never tell you, but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My God, he's beautiful
So I put on my make-up and pray for a miracle

Yes I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Oh, and he kills me
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him..
If you ask me if I love him..
I'd lie - Taylor Swift, I'd Lie"

I guess I would.. I'd lie~

Happy Birthday~

Happy Birthday to :

1) Ummi
2) Hajar
3) Umar
4) Fauzi
5) Nik

May all your dreams come true..
XD

Lots of love to the first and second.. lain2 tuh.. a.. biasa2 je la ye..?
hehehehhee...

xoxoxo
.nas.

Our Song

This song is actually an altered version by NAS.
Rewrote the lyrics according to my situation.

This song is for you, you, you, you and you.
(All the YOUs, you know who you are...)
Muahahhahaa...

Original Version by Taylor Swift..
(please don't be mad.. hahahhaha... XD)

Our Song, NAS version.

I was wearing a nightgown with my hair undone, singing to Taylor Swift
He's got one-eye focused on the work he's doing
The other on my screen
He seems so down, his brows turned down in a frown
I say darling is something wrong?
He says nothing he was just thinking how we don't have a song
And I say...

Our song is in the lyrics we quote,
Chatting at night, buzzing on your window
When we're on the line and you typed real slow
Cause it's late yet you haven't gone home
Our song is the way you laugh
The first words "hye, I missed you. Baby love, where you're at?"
And when I signed off... snuggling in my bed
I asked God if He could play it again...

I was walking up the front gate of my U to begin my day
Felt so cold and then I see his face
Hers, Theirs - now its okay~
Got to the hallway, we're on our way to our favourite place
I almost didn't notice all other noises
Cause I don't really care...

Our song is the ringing of the phone,
Going out at night, Singing loud just like crows
When we're on the cruise and we never drive slow
Cause it's late and our mamas don't know
Our song is the way we jest
The words we shared, the dirty funny things we said
And when I got home, smiling to myself
I asked God if He could play it again

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

Cause
Our song is the lyrics we quote,
Chatting at night, buzzing on his window
When we're on the line and he typed real slow
Cause it's late yet he hasn't gone home
Our song is the way we jest
The words we shared, the dirty funny things we said
And when I got home, smiling to myself
I asked God if He could play it again

I was riding on the bus, keep on thinking 'bout us
and how our love is like a mast
I turned the pc on and I logged in
And I... wrote down our song...

Love you all..
Love you. Love her and him. Love them.
xxx
NAS

1000 ciuman

1000 Ciuman

Zaman ni zaman susah. Harga minyak naik terus, akibatnya terjadi pemberhentian di berbagai syarikat. Salah satunya yg terkena pemberhentian ialah Suparjo dari Semarang , Indon. Bulan ni dia tak dapat kirim wang utk isterinya di kampung halaman. Hanya dapat kirim surat yg isinya demikian:

Isteriku tercinta,
Maafkan kanda sayang, bulan ni kanda tak dapat kirim wang utk keperluan keluarga di rumah Kanda hanya dapat mengirimkan buatmu 1000 ciuman.

paling cinta,
Kanda Suparjo

Seminggu kemudian Suparjo mendapat surat balasan dari isteri tercintanya

Kanda Suparjo tersayang,
Terima kasih atas kiriman 1000 ciumanmu. Utk bulan ini Dinda akan menyampaikan laporan perbelanjaan keluarga:

Tukang minyak bersedia menerima 2 ciuman setiap kali membeli 5 liter minyak tanah.

Tukang letrik mahu dibayar dengan 4 ciuman setiap 10hb setiap bulan.

Tuan rumah mahu sewanya dibayar ansuran 3 kali ciuman setiap hari.

Tokeh kedai runcit tak mahu dibayar pakai ciuman. Dia mintak yg lain jadi Dinda terpaksa berikan saja.

Hal yg sama juga kepada Guru Besar dan guru kelas sekolah di Nanang yg dah 3 bulan tertunggak.

Besok Dinda nak ke pajak gadai utk tukar 200 ciuman dgn wang tunai sebab Tokeh pajak gadai dah sedia tukarkan 200 ciuman dan gadaian yg lain dgn wang Rp650 ribu. Lumayan buat belanja sebulan.

Keperluan peribadi Dinda bulan ni mencapai 50 ciuman. Kanda tersayang..
bulan ni Dinda merasa menjadi org paling kaya di kampung kita kerana Dinda berikan hutang ciuman kepada ramai pemuda di kampung dan siap ditukar dengan apa pun keperluan Dinda.

Yang dari kanda masih berbaki 125 ciuman, kanda ada fikiran bagaimana mahu dihabiskan? Atau Dinda simpan dululah dalam tabung yer??

Paling sayang,
dari Dinda Suti Nirwingsih

.... gedebuk. .. Suparjo pengsan!!!!

rope and heart

"Is it fair to equal a breakable rope to a thousand iron chains?" - NAS

p/s : ma, buang je hadiah yang ma beli untuk dia. fiqa tak nak ada apa2 dengan dia. malas. penat. cukuplah apa yang dia da buat. tak guna nak teruskan. tengah cari alasan nak putuskan je.

I PARAPHRASE what Wanie had said earlier,

"You have my heart. All you gotta do is the maintenance"

My question to you, my darling dear (not Wanie - tapi dia),

"How can I - when you keep on breaking it yourself?"

"Awak nak saya buat nih, jadi orang itu.
Awak nak saya jaga, tapi awak?
Awak nak saya ada, tapi mana awak?
Awak nak saya pentingkan awak, tapi kenapa saya nampak awak lagi pentingkan dia dan mereka?
Awak nak bersama, tapi kenapa selalu pergi?
Awak nak saya berubah, awak pula macam mana?
Awak nak saya buat apa lagi?
Saya dah cuba bagi yang terbaik, tak cukup lagi ke?
Awak.. kalau susah sangat, awak berpaling je la.
Saya tak nak sakitkan hati awak lagi.
Biarlah saya pandai2 hidup.
Awak nak buat apa pun suka hati - saya tak halang. Tak pernah halang.
Kenapa kita macam ni?
Kalau kita ada masalah, boleh tak awak cakap?
Saya tak tahu teka hati awak.
Awak pun tak boleh teka hati saya.
Boleh kita sama-sama selamatkan hubungan ni?
Boleh...?"

Penat gak jadi pasangan yang kena buat benda2 nih. Senang kalau sama2 jaga. Susah kalau sorang lagi tak de kesedaran nak buat benda yang sama.

Susah gak berkasih dengan orang yang fikir kita nih satu beban. Baik tak payah.
Tapi kenapa aku masih stay?
Fiqa. Fiqa. Tak pernah nak belajar dari kesilapan, kan? haih..

"Saya sayang awak. Sangat. Amat. I love you. I really do. But I am praying to Allah that I should love you a lot LESS. It hurts. Sangat sakit." -NAS

Sape dia?
That is for me to know.
No worries, it is not you. nor you. and no. bukan dia. bukan dia.
=)

p/s : thank you hazeatt for making me laugh after a very emotional and nerve wrecking day. Arigatou! =)
(no. 'dia' is not this person either)..

Jangan Perasan

Kau bukan satu-satunya kawan aku yang boleh cakap bahasa Arab dan menggunakan bahasa2 Islam bile aku tgh marah atau kecewa atau sedih atau pe2 je la...

So, JANGAN perasan.

Kawan2 aku ada gak yg macam tuh dari engineering, UIA, JB, etc..

So, jangan dan TAK PERLU kau fikir yg blog entry aku 'read at your own risk' tuh pasal ko. Ramai lagi kat luar tuh yg buat camtu.

read at your own risk

Malam tadi dan malam sebelumnya adalah malam yang penuh dengan kemarahan dan kepenatan.

Excuse me for the next few minutes.

Damn you!! Who the hell do you think you are?!! I ain't your servant and I ain't no free walking-portable-translator!!

Kepada korang yang ade macam2 alasan dan hal tuh.. aku cakap satu je la.. Kalau nak ikutkan, semua orang busy dan takde orang yang free untuk orang lain melainkan untuk DIRI SENDIRI. ALERT! ALERT! Yes. That means everybody who is anybody are actually darn selfish people. I know I am. But I know where I stand and my responsibilities. So I make time. I find time. But... Do YOU??!!

Kau yang gelar diri kau kawan aku:
Do NOT use Islamic views and Al-Quran's verses to 'pacify' me.
Bila aku marah ngan ko atau KAU yang TERASA aku marah ngan ko.. JANGAN tulis ayat nih

"I love you my friend, May Allah bless you"

Firstly, betul ke ko anggap aku kawan ko? kawan jenis apa tuh? cakap sket.. and yea.. aku nak tanya gak.. betul ke ko 'SAYANG' aku atau ko sayang kan kedudukan ko sekarang nih?!

Kau ingat kau tuh baik sangat a? Aku ni memang la tak sehebat kau, kan? Aku tak paham bahasa Arab, aku solat pun kekadang terlepas, aku punya ibadah pun entah diterima ke tak..

Tapi, bile da buat salah dan tahu org marah kat kau, boleh tak kau jangan 'justify' your actions and words according to 'contracts', agama and pe2 je la lagi. Kau lain, aku berbeza.
*BETUL KE NIAT KAU TU BAIK? KE SAJE NAK TUNJUK KAT ORG LAIN YG KAU TU BAIK DARI AKU??*

and boleh tak give me ONE damn straight answer?!!
YES or NO.
Boleh atau tidak.
Tu je yg aku nak tau.
Kau diam kau fikir aku boleh tahu la keputusan kau tuh?

Aku bodoh, tapi aku tak jahil.

Biar aku digelar biadap oleh manusia macam kau dari kena pijak tak tentu pasal dengan spesies kau tuh. Buang masa dan tenaga aku layan ko.

owh, by the way.. there is something called "RESPECT".. sebab tu org buat rule 'silence on the set'..

and yes! this post bukan untuk kau sorang je.. macam2 orang lain gak.
ko fikir ko je la boleh marah and kutuk aku blakang2?! ingat aku tak tahu ah apa yang ko cakap kay blakang aku?! sudahla weih. aku penat dgn ko. tak puas hati cakap depan2. aku buat depan2.

nak terasa nasib la.
tak suka?
blah dari blog aku. jangan baca.
senang kan?
kalau ko rase ko yang aku cakap tuh.. naseb la ek? aku penat layan org yg macam2 kerenah nih. korang ingat korang jela yg penat layan aku? dahla.. aku pun sama.
jom kita sama2 penat.

aku nak rehat. aku cakap ngan ko bila2 aku rase aku nak cakap.
kalau ko rase nak cakap ngan aku, ko cakap ah.. aku dengar.
aku marah ko nih skejap je.
jap g okay la tuh.

...

jap nak bertafakur jap..


...

k. dah.

Aku MINTA MAAF la kat korang yang baca entry nih dan terasa. But I SPEAK my mind like you do.

now aku da ok.
smile.
=)

haih...

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2) Was given this award by Hajar.
She is kind and patient. but she HATES waiting and she HATES being tagged.
she loves watermelon juice and kuey tiaw goreng sotong.
She dislikes veges and she loves the color RED.
I don't know how she can stand me and I don't know how I can stand her.
We are total opposites but I love her still - as a friend of course. hehehe..


3) 10 facts about me:
- I love shades of purple, black, white, blue and red.
- I love chocolate.
- I adore children.
- I love bunnies, bears, tiger cubs and kitties.. cuddly~
- I speak my mind.
- I don't know how to deal with idiots.
- I don't deal well with people who do not have any common sense.
- I love to dance.
- I like to read, write poem and play guitar.
- I am afraid of failure.


4) This award goes to :
- pana
- safwan
- acad
- afiq dharma
- kak pah

disappointment

Now I know what I truly felt when I kept myself to my own - DISAPPOINTMENT.

It was not anger that I felt those many times - it was hurt and disappointment..
couldn't even bring myself to say those words to the person(s) involved.

You rendered me speechless
You hurt me by mere words
I was not angry before
It was more of disappointment that I felt to the core.

I am truly tired of fighting for this,
It's taking a toll on me.

*You disappoint me. You never really understood what you mean to me - neither does that other person in this matter.

weird but there is still truth.. ahahaha

I did several tests.. this result is damn funny.. muahhahaha..

TEST 1 :

• The one who will never forget you is Wanie.
• The one who you can consider as your real friend is Herne.
• The one you really love is Hajar.
• This may be your soulmate: Shaza. (as if.. we are both heterosexual, thank you very much..)
  
• The one you will remember for the rest of your life is Haziq.

TEST 2 :

1. The most important thing in your life is a well-developed mind.
2. The type of friends that you want is understanding and sensible.

TEST 3 :
You've made your way well in this world despite all the obstacles you've had to faced. You have survived a lot more troubles than most people. You have had to deal with difficult people, ridiculous rules, and tempestuous relationships.

Love for you can be as intense as the fire on the face of the sun. You are either very calm on the inside when there is a lot of insanity going on around you, or you shut people up and take charge. You can go to a movie by yourself. You are as comfortable alone as you are with others. You are angry at your parents but you can't change them.

You are a great lover when you find that rare mate who is your equal, otherwise your relationships do not go well. Life is a roller coaster, and you are finding ways to make the good times better. You love sports.

*This actually shows how bored I was feeling..

XD

grateful

Alhamdulillah~ dah habis segala test dan assessment untuk minggu ni..

Literature ESL - bising sangat kat depan tuh sampai takleh nak concentrate.. hentam tulis.. tak check pun..

Mock Meeting - ahahahahaha.. no comment.. as usual, my pacing was faster than supposed pace.

PTE - Entah ape yg aku bace.. entah apa yg aku tulis.. entah ape pun aku tak tau.. huhu.. (Allah, help me please..)


*dia lagi sayang dia*