archives of hurt and love

"God, I just realize how much I love him.
and it hurts.
It hurts that I miss him.
It hurts that I gotta be strong for him.
It hurts that I just cannot be with him."

and I just cannot take another step towards them without hurting.
I love them and that hurts. so bad.

Yes. I am hurt.
Why?
Am I not allowed to?

*how bad am I hurt? Just read scathingtruth to know.