Thursday, November 27, 2008

PIGGY ALERT!!!!

Assalamualaikum,

dear readers.. I have a bad news with uppercase letters.. means BAD!!

PIGGY ALERT!!

It seems that the industry had found a loophole of getting away with products which contained piggy substance..

I went out shopping with my aunt and was about to buy Cadbury Chocolate and so forth..
She stopped me and said, "Check the code".

I went blank then she explained of how nowadays most of the company uses codes starting with E (not generalizing.. but most of the codes starts with E) to represent the presence of piggy substance... Surprisingly, this has never been published in public accept for those who have access and contacts and also those who know what to look for..

And another surprise, we all know this E codes as 'SOY LECITHIN'.
Supposely it is made out of freaking SOY!
NOT some piggy things..
(Sorry Non Muslim Readers, no offense is intended. its just me being a Muslim trying to abide the rules of Islam)

Now this is something I found at Jakim's webpage written by a concerned consumer and also the list of what my aunt showed me.

"PIG Fat In Coded For Products
Following is the story behind "Why & How these E-Codes for Fats are being introduced and used"

E-coded Animal FatFacts Regarding Animal Fat (Message from R. M. AMJAD KHAN)

Today I am forwarding a very important message to all Muslims present in the world, of which we all are unaware. Kindly read it fully and forward it to as many Muslims as u can so that all of us should know, of what our ALLAH has forbidden us. THIS IS DERIVED FROM DARAB-E-MOMIN NEWSPAPER, ARTICLE BY YASIR MOHAMMAD KHAN DATE 23-29 AUGUST, 2002 one of my friends, Shiekh Sahib works in Pegal, France in department of food. His work was to register all make up goods, foods and medicines. Whenever any company was putting something in market first its ingredients were approved by DEPARTMENT OF FOOD, FRANCE and as Shiekh Sahib worked there he knew what the ingredients were, because he was on the laboratory quality control. Many of these ingredients contained scientific names but some of them have mathematical names like E-904, E-141, and Shiekh Sahib was astonished what were these, one day he asked his officer in-charge who was a French and he replied, "Just do your job,don't ask questions"but this rouse suspicion in Shiekh Sahib's mind and he started looking for it in files, WHAT WAS FOUND, WAS ENOUGH TO ASTONISH ANY MUSLIM IN THE WORLD.

NEARLY in all countries of the world including EUROPE, PIG is the staplefood for meat. There are a lot of forms in these countries to breed this animal (PIG). ONLY IN FRANCE PIG FARMS COUNT MORE THAN 42,000. Pigs are ready for cutting for meat when they reach a certain age, which is their favorite.Pig has the highest quantity of fats in its body than any animal on earth. But Europeans and Americans don't eat fats. THUS where should these fats go from the carcasses of these MILLIONS OF PIGS? All pigs are cut in slaughterhouses under the control of department of food. And it was the headache of department of food to wastes the fats from the pigs. Formerly it was burnt (till early 60 yrs ago) but then they thought why not use it instead of wasting it to generate money.Thus they started using it in SOAPS and the experiment was successful.Then a full network was built, this fat was chemically processed,packed and marketed, while other companies purchased it. Meanwhile all European states made it a rule that every food and medicine item's ingredients must be enlisted on the PRODUCT. So it was listed called PIG FAT, those who live in Europe from last 40 yrs know it, but these products where than BANNED by ISLAMIC STATES AT THAT TIME and these companies faced a net trade deficit, which also effected the economy of the country in which they were centralized.

If you are somehow related to SOUTH EAST ASIA, you may know the provoking factors of 1857 civil war. In that time rifle bullets were made in Europe and transported to SUBCONTINENT, through sea ships and it took 6 months to carry these from Europe to subcontinent. In these six months the gunpowder get wet, and in result they were not good for use. So what happened,British found that if these bullets and ammonation is covered with a layer of fat, they are preserved from the wetting effect of sea breeze.Thus they used PIG FAT, for that here, nearly all soldiers were MUSLIMS,and in that time these fat layers were to be scratched by teeth. Thus Muslims were advertently pushed to taste the PIG FAT. When this came to light, Muslim soldiers went on strike and this was the start of 1857, CIVIL WAR. Then Europeans recognized this fact, and instead of writing PIG FAT, they started writing ANIMAL FAT. All those living in Europe since 1970's know this fact. When the companies were asked by Muslim countries authorities, what animal fat is it, they said they are cow and goat fat.

Here again a question aroused, if these are cow or goat fat, still they are HARAM, to Muslims, as these animals are not slaughtered by Islamic rules.Thus they were again banned. Now these international companies were again facing a severe drought of money, as there 75% income comes from selling there goods to Muslim countries, and these earn BILLIONS OF DOLLARS of profit from there export to Muslim world.

So they decided to start a coding language, so that only there countries departments of food administration should know what they are using, and all others should not know what is in it. Thus they started E-CODES, NOW BECAUSE THESE GOODS ARE USED IN ALL MUSLIM WORLDS INDISCRIMINATELY, OUR SOCIETY IS FACING PROBLEMS LIKE, SHAMELESSNESS, RUDENESS AND SEXUAL STRAY. These E-INGREDIENTS are present in majority of products of multinational firms including:
Tooth paste
Shaving cream
Chewing gum
Chocolate
Sweets
Biscuits
Corn flakes
Toffees
Tin packed foods
Tin fruits
Some medications
Multi-vitamins

SO I REQUEST ALL MUSLIMS TO JUST CHECK THE INGREDIENTS OF THESE ABOVE. MENTIONED AND ALL USAGE STUFF,AND MATCH IT WITH THE FOLLOWING LIST. IF SOMETHING FROM THE FOLLOWING LIST IS FOUND, JUST AVOID THAT BECAUSE IT HAS GOT PIG FATS IN IT E-CODES:

E100, E110, E120, E140, E141, E153,

E210, E213, E214, E216, E234, E252,E270, E280,

E325, E326, E327, E334, E335, E336,E337,

E422, E430, E431, E432, E433, E434, E4 35, E436, E440, E470, E471, E472, E473, E474, E475, E476, E477, E478, E481, E482, E483, E491, E492, E493, E494, E495,

E542, E570, E572, E631, E635, E904.

I WILL UPGRADE THE LIST TIME BY TIME, IT IS THE RESPONSIBILITY OF ALL US MUSLIMS THAT WE SHOULD CIRCULATE THIS EMAIL AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE SO THAT WE CAN STOP OTHER MUSLIMS OF VIOLATING THE ISLAMIC LAWS. KINDLY DO REMEMBER ME IN YOUR PRAYS.
YOURS OBEDIENTLY, DR.M.AMJAD KHAN."


2) SOALAN KEDUA

Saya ingin mendapat penjelasan mengenai status KFC dan Pizza Hut, adakah halal dimakan? Ini kerana saya ada mendengar desas desus bahawa ayam yang digunakan di KFC tidak disembelih mengikut hukum syarak. Begitu juga pizza di Pizza Hut khabarnya disediakan menggunakan keju yang tidak halal atau mengandungi renet (lemak babi). Harap mendapat penjelasan daripada JAKIM berhubung perkara ini.
Segala kerjasama pihak JAKIM didahului dengan ucapan ribuan terima kasih.

JAKIM'S ANSWER
Wassalam.
Tarikh Aduan :
26/12/2007 - 08:35:57
Jawapan :
Salam, Untuk pengetahuan Tuan, kod E digunakan secara meluas sebagai penunjuk kepada bahan tambahan kimia seperti perasa, pengawet, pewarna, bahan pengental dan sebagainya. Ia didapati daripada sumber tumbuhan, haiwan dan kimia sintetik. Bagi pemegang sijil pengesahan halal JAKIM, kami memastikan sumbernya adalah nyata suci dan halal. Jika ia daripada haiwan, hendaklah ia daripada haiwan yang halal dimakan dan diproses/sembelih mengikut hukum syara'. JAKIM sentiasa memeriksa dan memantau dengan teliti dari bahan ramuan, proses, kendalian, pembungkusan sehinggalah premis pengeluar produk tersebut.Kesimpulannya, terdapat sumber lain bagi bahan berkod E tersebut selain daripada haiwan. KFC dan Pizza Hut merupakan pemegang sijil pengesahan halal JAKIM yang sah. JAKIM sentiasa memantau dan memeriksa semua pemegang sijil halal JAKIM dari masa ke semasa. Sumber bekalan ayam bagi restoran berkenaan telah diperiksa teliti dari masa ke semasa dan keju yang digunakan juga telah diperiksa pembekalnya dan ianya telah disahkan halal. Terima kasih.

My questions are :
1) How far is the truth? I mean.. the list and research findings were given by someone who is knowledgable in this area. But JAKIM said there are other resources..

ME (consumer) who has zero knowledge on how these things come about = ?????!!!????

2) What if.. just what if.. those in the list are NOT the ones with piggy fat? What if someone altered the message? Which means someone is trying to steer the Muslims away from th right path subtlely?

3) What if it is the truth? What if the whole research finding is TRUE and our ISLAMIC Government ain't doing anything bout it?

4) This research was done WHEN?! and I got to know about it only NOW???!! What the hell happened to MASS MEDIA??!! What on earth is the TOPSHOTS trying to protect if this is TRUE??!!

And the MOST unacceptable(for a moment) fact is that these codes are mostly dominated by food which contains CHOCOLATE!

Yes guys.. you guessed right.

CHOCOLATE including Cadbury..

ArGhHHhHh!!!!!!!
I CAN'T ACCEPT IT!!!

But the good news is that not all companies have these codes. Nestle Products are safe as far I know..

but CADBURY??!!!

But then again,
These are all just MY assumptions.. am NOT pinpointing anyone.. just want and need someone SINCERE and HONEST to tell me the whole damned truth bout these stuff..

But if we look at the possibilities and consequences:
1) No wonder we have so much social problems even when we do practice what our religion(Islam) tells us to.

2) Children LOVE to EAT these things EVERYDAY. Heck! Adults like us love it too. I know I do. So, what if our little snacks are the sources of our big misbehaviours and sins?

I don't know..

YOU be the judge.
YOU decide for yourself.

This post is just something I want to ponder on WITH all of you, a dedication to all Muslims and something that I think might be useful as a guideline to just get us through the day as true Muslims.

Wallahu'alam.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

BuLLsHiT!!

Guess what?

I got to know something while I was helping out my ex's brother-in-law with his work(he asked me to cause he is out of town for a couple of days)..

Like my first ex, my second LIED to me.

As usual.. he told me the craps like :
I love you
I miss you
I miss to hear your voice
I want to be with you
Do not forget me
...
...
...
...
...
...
x1001 other things..

Sheesh..

It is not so much that I loved him..
But I cared for him enough to feel a slight hurt..

It seemed that I just got to know TODAY, after being absent rom their presence for about 2-3 months.. He is now back with his previous ex.

The irony is that I told him before he was 'with' me that he still loved his previous ex cause he still did not let go.. but he kept on saying things that contradict my judgments(which turned out to be true)..

I am far too lazy to type out everything so hear is the gist..

Story A
1)Jay(my second ex) has been with his previous ex when his father was sick.. As I recall, it was sometime early this semester - which was at THAT time, we were still TOGETHER.

2)Jay and 'her' got back together during Ramadhan - no wonder he forgot my birthday. Me - whom he dared to call me sayang and addressed me as his 'kekasih'..

3)He bought her a teddy bear. He bought me chocolate..


4)He put her name as "My Love" as her caller ID - Wow!! isn't that obvious?! and when I pointed it out - he DENIED it.. saying that is not his girlfriend..

Story B(His Side)
1)He is back with her(but I quote "tak settle lagi la") after I broke up with him which was somewhere in october if I'm not mistaken.. and this time it was the FINAL decision on my side.

2)He did not buy her a teddy bear.

3)I have no idea what other lies he came up with. I was beyond listening and believing.


After knowing, I called up hajar and I laughed about it. I talked to her about his doings infront of his face and he knew it. Like I care. When he started to stutter and tried to 'reason'(my ass), I stopped him and said..

"Awak tipu"
"Stop lying to me"
"You lied to me"
"Jangan tipu"

and I used them whenever he started to 'explain'..
Come on, do NOT tell me that I should give him a chance to explain because we all know when someone is lying straight to our faces. The only difference is that we want tem to believe that we bought their stupid lies or we dont.

I even said to him "Ya Allah, bodohnya saya.. butanya saya.." and I finally said "Patut ke saya percaya apa yang awak cakap sedangkan awak dah tipu saya?" and "Allah akan tunjukkan kebenaran jugak bila tiba masanya. Allah da tunjuk kat saya. Alhamdulillah. Nasib baik saya yang walk away kan?"

It is not so much that I care or whatever you call it.. but I think it was my stupidity and he was just an ass to 'use' me - in a way.. You do NOT want to know. I don't want to talk about the sordid details.. ahahahhahahaa..

The best part.. his brother in law who was my former boss, and he IS quite close to me, knew all about what the heck was going on between us and did not say a word to me. Was he protecting himself or what?!

ArGhhh!!!


Whatever.
I am DONE.
He can do whatever he wants.
I do not care.
Talk to me when you are ready to tell the TRUTH.
I don't give a damn about any bullshit you're trying to dump on me.
and why dont you just get over it.
The damage is done.
I am not gonna be here anymore.
Shutting all doors.
Deal with life yourself.

You walked out on me first.
You came back.
I walked away from you.
I am not turning back.


I am not sad.
I am just mad.
So stay out of my life.

Get Over It - Avril Lavigne

Slipping down a slide
I did enjoy the ride
Don't know what to decide
You lied to me
You looked me in the eye
It took me by surprise
Now are you gratified
You cried to me

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of your face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad
It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Twilight Breakdown

I am going crazy!!!

Someone call the cops and shrinks..

Wait.. don't.


Damn it all to hell and back!!

I hate feeling this way..
I hate the feeling of suddenly missing out on something precious and wonderful..
I hate tumbling into series of fantasy and if onlys life and thought..
I hate seeing others and envy them for the love they share..
I hate walking in the crowd and feeling lost..
I hate the sensation and thrill when I was with him..
I hate it!

And you know what brought it?

Looking at Edward and Bella..
Reading about what they have..

Looking at something I can never have even when they are not real..
Reading about things I know will not happen to me..ever..

I hate it..

But I also love the way I get to escape from the harsh reality.. even for awhile..
and I love the way how I imagine what I could have.. even for a moment..

Guess Twilight brought back the human in me..
Now I need to take a step back and close it all again..

Opening up after reading a book may sound crazy..
But
It makes me feel alive.
It makes me feel vulnerable.

Now I need to shut it once more.
I do not want that voice in my head again.
I need the solitude and emptiness.
I need the darkness.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Twilight Update

Been waiting anxiously for twilight the movie to be on the big screen..

So, I downloaded several trailers and anything that has gotta to do with the movie.. (Sheesh fiqa..how obsessive can you be..) that shows how bored I am.. ahahahahhahaa...

whatever it is, for twilighters in Malaysia..

Do NOT miss the movie..

Owh..

By the way,
the song by Candace Charee "The smell of your skin ..." for the movie is fantastic, the lyrics I mean.. because I am not that crazeeey about the music.. guess for me it does not really fit..

oh.. and she wrote the song right after she read Eclipse..

I kinda admire her guts and ability to make a song and publish or should I say air it..?

anyway, I can write lyrics and sing them(even though I do not have the voice of an angel, at least I do not sound like a toad either.. ahahhahaha)..I can make my own tunes and flow and beat.. but I cannot put them into music notes or play them on the piano..

Wish I have that talent.. huhu..

= )

The Smell Of Your Skin All Over My Body-by Candace Charee (taken from her blog)
"Those dazzling eyes, full of fire and desire.
Captured my heart with one glance
I never stood a chance
In my eyes, I can only see perfection
Even when you think you're so flawed
Oh how you're wrong!

And its the smell of your skin all over my body
Its the feel of your touch on my soul
Its enough to make a grown woman crazy
oooohhh
You're the only one God made me for
You're the only one I'd give my life for

Obsessive love runs deep through my veins
you're like the drug that keeps me sane
my heart will never beat the same
cant you see I'm dying
just to keep your love next to me
please set me free!

And its the smell of your skin all over my body
Its the feel of your touch on my soul
Its enough to make a grown woman crazy
oooohhh
You're the only one God made me for
You're the only one I'd give my life for

Lets not wait any longer
Here I stand
Take Me
Take Me
Take me as I am!

You're the only one God made me for
You're the only one I'd give my life for"

Friday, November 14, 2008

wheels and strangers

WHEELS OF TRUST



I don't know why.. but I want to talk bout wheels..


Have you guys ever wondered why it is easier for you to give the wheels to one person but not to the other?

"Giving your wheel to another for navigation represents trust - NAS"

How far and how strong is your trust to a person can easily be seen through your actions. For example, the wheels.

Drivers.. surely you know what I am talking about..

Others who do not drive, it is as simple as this :
you find it easier to lend your beloved items to your closest of friends rather than strangers.

Why?

You trust your friends..
see what I mean?


So, how far do you trust your friends?
And how deep is their trust toward you?



LOVE VERSUS FRIENDSHIP



Have you ever lost a friendship because of your friend is in love with you or has a crush on you OR vice versa?

Through my experience, love developed from friendship can either be the strongest of relationships or the worst when it is ended..

Why am I talking about this?
Maybe because tomorrow's psychology exam is finally making me psychotic..
Muahahhahaa...

Well,
I had a chat with the man who had feelings for me..
He was a friend from high school. A very close and special friend.
But our friendship ended cause he felt something more, and he assumed I knew about his feelings and thought that I rejected/did not need him.. (I rarely shows what I truly feel)

He walked away and we lost the most wonderful, treasured and closest friendship amongst our colleagues. You want to know something?
The whole school community realized that and started to feel weird, awkward and confused about the two of us not being together as friends.

It took us two years to get back to being friends.
Even then(now), it is no longer the same.
I cannot give him the same trust, attention and care as I did previously..
and the worst part is that he realized that and is hurt because of that..
"VK,
I am sorry, but you hurt me.
I can never be the same.."

So..
What do you guys think of this matter?

Stay friends forever..

OR

take chances to become more than that?

I am not pin pointing anyone. Neither am I saying that it is wrong..

but too many evidence points out that close friends who move on to becoming lovers and then break up often end up being the perfect strangers.

Friends who infatuate and confess will alter the whole base of friendship.
It is good and fantastic if it is reciprocal.
But..
what if it is one sided?

Isn't it unfair to the infatuated person and others who are involved in the friendship?
Why?
The friendship is no longer the same..

*You start being cautious in making jokes in order not to hurt anyone's feelings..
*You start to filter your-previously-normal speech
*You start feeling awkward in one another's presence
*...

I should know because I experienced it..
I hate this kind of situation..
I hope it will never happen again..

I am lucky to be a person who is not easy to fall in love.. (Alhamdulillah)

But.. what about you?

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

This is me

Been worried about a friend who had problems which are unknown to me..
I stumbled upon this lyric and found it interesting because I felt the same..
But I have deleted parts which I think irrelevant to our friendship..

"Lately I get the feeling there's something you're holding in
How can you be so quiet as close as we've been
Do you think your silence is saying there ain't nothing wrong with you
This is me you're not talking to

Don't you know I'm still here for you
So what do you think you're doing
Who do you think you're fooling
This is me you're not talking to

You can run to me no matter what you're running from
If it's something I'm doing
I'll get it undone
Just don't let me be a stranger to what you're going through
This is me you're not talking to - Randy Travis, edited version by NAS"



But right now am just relieved, glad, happy and grateful that whatever my friend's previous problem is now resolved - I think..

Just keep on praying for his happiness..

Monday, November 10, 2008

bisikan memori & memori pertemuan

Acad.. kamu yang minta.. muahahahhaaa..

This poem was composed by me several years back - during my high school years..


BISIKAN MEMORI
(by NAS@Puteri Nurnila Awana)

Tika senja melayarkan tirainya
Keadaan bertukar menjadi kelam
Suasana berubah menjadi suram

Saat ini ku terkenangkan dirimu
Yang jauh beribu batu
Saat ini ku inginkan dirimu
Berada dekat disisiku

Namun ku tahu
Semuanya mustahil untuk berlaku

Tika tabir malam kian berlabuh
Bisikan memori mula menyentuh
Wajahmu bermain di ruang mataku
Suaramu berlegar di kolam mindaku

Segala memori bersamamu
Kian meruntun jiwa dan ragaku
Hasrat ingin bersua denganmu
Kian menyeksa hati dan perasaanku

Akhirnya ku bawa juga segala memori
Menemani tidurku sekali lagi
Seperti malam-malam sebelum ini
Lenaku diulit bisikan memori


Hope you guys enjoyed mine.. =)

This is another poem.. it was actually written by my poetry companion, who is also my close friend. Truth be told, we befriended and contacted one another through letter exchange (see if you can detect the hint in this poem)..

He wrote this poem as a tribute to our meeting and .... . (well, its a secret..)


MEMORI PERTEMUAN
(by MSI@Pendeta Mutiara Sahmura)

Tiap kata yang kau ungkap

Membuatkan sedetik jiwaku senyap

Tika aku keseorangan
Dia datang membawa harapan

Mungkinkah aku bersamanya
Seiring sejalan melangkah
Lautan persahabatan yang tenang membiru
Mahupun yang asyik bergelora

Kau bertandang dihatiku
Merayau-rayau dijiwaku
Yang kosong tiada apa
Yang sunyi tiada kata
Hanya angin saja berlalu
Di tabir purnama satu

Aku bersamanya melagukan puisi cahaya
Nan indah seantero malam
Di situlah tercurah segala pendam
Membasahi bumi yang kelam

Sedetik jiwaku senyap
Mengenangkan dia yang bermain dimataku
Kadang kala ku tenang dalam tangisan
Mengenangkan segala yang tak mungkin dilupa

Ku riang bersamamu
Sepanjang pertemuan yang tidak ditemu
Namun tidak sekali ku rasa jemu
Bermain dengan kata-katamu
Mengisi kesunyian malam
Sampai bila harusku pendam
Perasaan indah yang mendalam

Tika hati menjadi kelam
Pabila jiwa menjadi suram
Detik minda kian menjunam

Inikah masanya harusku luah
Menghilangkan segala jiwa yang resah
Menghanyutkan segala keluh nan kesah
Meminggirkan segala hati yang gundah

Dalam diam ku tatap sepi
Iras wajahnya menggelegak di hati
Kuukir jiwanya di penjuru sanubari
Moga kisah ini akan bersemi

Ku harap kau faham jiwaku
Yang memberontak sekian waktu
Mengharap ketenangan darimu.

Tiap warkah yang ku sampaikan
Tiap kata ku dendangkan
Hanya untukmu

Ku harap kau hargai nilai ini
Walau si nuri terbang tinggi
Meninggalkan dunia yang sunyi

Namun harapanku hanya satu
Terbang tinggi bersamamu.


Do you guys have anything to say?
ahahahahhaa...

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Fall For You

All of the entries including POETRIES are original compositions by NAS (me).
Do RESPECT my work and words.
Do not try to think even for a second to use any of the entries and compositions as your own.

I'll KILL you if you do.

This is just another random and out of the blue composition. Sunday, 21:25, 09 November 2008(NAS).

Fall For You
I thought of you last night
I think of you this morning
I miss you when you are not around
I need you - I scream without a sound
I crave your presence when you don't linger
I want to be with you when you are here
Loving you from far
Infatuating from the bottom of my heart
Falling for you is what I do
Over and over until the day is through
Wish I could get over it
But when you smile - my world is lit
What do I do?
What do I say?
Tell you the truth
Or pretend I am still the same...


CiRcLes in My LiFe

Wet out with Haziq, Hajar and Afiq again yesterday and this time to Bukit Tinggi.. At first it was just for having a meal - Pizza Hut, but then it turned out that we were to watch movie.. and that movie is not even released at any other cinemas YET - MADAGASCAR 2!!


..Ni muka penat sebab the show was at 11.45 pm.. huhu..

Yes! We watched it already.. It was fantastic and fun and purely entertaining downright to the core.. Ahhahahahaa.. Came back home around 2.30 am I think.. ooopss..
hehehe... Sorry ma..



I am pretty sure there are those who are confused when there are words like 'core/inner circle', 'circles' and so forth in my blog entries, ym, etc.

Just clearing up the air, 'circle' is the term I use to address the ones whom I would very much want to keep as friends for a very very very very very long time. Just because I call several people my core circle and a few others the inner circle, does not mean that I seclude others from my friendship or help.


There are 3 main things that you need to understand about 'the circle' :

1) A circle can expand, reshaped and goes on forever.. there is no stop - that's why I use that one particular term.


2) My circle is not a clique. Why?
  • We are close friends and share multiple similarities and humongous differences
  • We are not rule bound (dresscode, etc)
  • Our circle is expandable - as long as you are nice and sincere to us
  • We hangout, study and do crazy things together. But we also do not mind if the circlets want to hangout with another group.
3) We do our best to keep our friendship alive even when we have disputes among our friends@circlets. (Trust me - been there, done that)

well.. those are the three main reasons why I call them 'circle'..

Inner circle consists of many people.. sometimes, you are in it.. but you are just not aware of it until we come up to you and do something.. ahahahaha..

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Picca Micca

1) Inner Circle's Day Out - Bukit Raja


Haziq : Keep Your Hands Off Of My FOOD!


Afiq: emm.. sedap sungguh la pizza ni.. Layan~


Erkk.. (Haziq da kenyang.. Muahahaha)


Afiq : Ya Salam~


2) BEL 422 PRESENTATION DAY
Sempat pulak nak bergambar.. kan? Muahahahhaa...


From Left : Mojha, Acad, Nael.


whose shoes and feet are hotter?
- mine of course.. its GOLD.. duuh.. ahahahhaha

3) Circle's Day Out - Mid Valley
Went to Mid Valley right after Phonetics and Phonology's final exam.. Muahahahahha
!!!
Got ourselves Baskin Robbins ice cream and watched a not-so-scary movie : The Coffin.. hhehehe


Firdaous : Heh.. apa? best sangat ke makan ais krim tuh?


Nadia : Ala.. dia jealous kan?
Flow : a'ah..


Baskin Robbins' free models... ahahahahhaaa...



Firdaous : Ha.. mula2 hang pakai dulu tangan hijau nih..


F: Ahh!! Tidak!! (A : DuSh!!)

4) Girls' Night Out
We went to Dataran Shah Alam and gone mad there.. Muahahahahaa..

Crazy and Happy Poses



Hajar (White scarf), Shaza (Black scarf), Teddy (Red shirt) & Azni (Pink hairband)



From the right: Shaza, Afiqah, Azni & Hajar


Sesi tahan menahan dan tarik Hajar pulang.. Muahahahahhaa!!


The Hand Frame



The Hand Attack!!



Photographers : Afiqah, Teddy and Hajar.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Sorry All

Okay, so I scared several people with my post entitled 'danger'..

Guys, drop the subject please.

If it makes you guys feel better, I went out - but only for a while.

Guess I stopped short because of the voice inside kept on screaming "STOP!!"

and I guess my mother had raised me right and I did not want to upset her if she knows - I hope she never will. It was a really short and momentary emotional breakdown..

Zikri - I won't do it again.. If I do, I'll do it around KL instead.. ahahahhaha..

Shaza - it was a momentary stunt. I pulled back before doing something really stupid..

Others - don't panic.. PANIC!! muahahahhaa..


nay, there is nothing to worry about.. It was stupid and momentary. I repeat MOMENTARY.. so, don't think about it anymore..

I'm sorry you guys..

Love all =)

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Never was one of theirs

Dear Blog,
I went out with my friends yesterday. Unfortunately, one of my friends was not happy and I don't know why. She was sulking the whole damned day and at the end of the day it got to me. She talked nicely to everyone but when I talked to her, her mood changed. What did I do? I asked her, but she refused to talk.

Maybe she's angry with me about the remark I made about her off and on ex/current boyfriend. That guy hurts her a lot. I know what he did to her, but she kept on opening her arms to him whenever he ran back to her. It's really annoying because she deserves better. but then again, who am I trying to kid? She loves him. That's fine with me. I don't mind if she wants to be with him, I'm not mad. I am just worried about her because I know what it would do to her other relationship like her friendship with others - with me for example. But if she chose to be with him, I don't mind. It's her choice and all I would do is just be there if he hurts her. Is that so wrong to just care for someone?!

My other friend is confusing me. I don't know whether that friend of mine truly cares for me or if I am merely another replacement of someone else. It really hurts cause sometimes the words from this friend of mine just hurt me so much.

Dear Blog,
I saw my friend again just now. She is still like yesterday.. I don't know why, but i feel very sad because she is one of the closest friends to me. I guess she never thought me the same way.. Haha.. I am extremely absurdly stupid. How could I be so blind?! She and my other friend never saw me the way I see them. Both of them are good together. I love them both but God knows what they feel about me.

She, and my other friends went out for lunch. I got left behind.



I am tired. I'll pull back. They can do whatever they want to do. I'll try not to care anymore. I'll pretend that everything is fine.

Friends tell you what you did wrong so you can improve
TRUE friends still talk to one another when one admits her/his fault
REAL friends hold on to one another no matter what

Guess I never was one of theirs.


Dear blog,
I was down, then my little brother sent me messages on ym, trying to rationalize and pulling me out of the emotional black hole - Which he couldn't cause I won't let him.. But he did make me laugh for the first time from yesterday.. I was trying to make him go away and leave me be to my own sorry self..

But he said, " ... and stop trying to get rid of me, i'm your little brother, technically that gives me free license to nag you and be a pain in the ass and a leech"

Ahahahaha.. And I am GLAD he did not do as I told him too. That proves something.. He knows me well enough to know when to stay.. and I thank Allah for that..

My little brother's act reminds me of a song sung by Nick Lachey - Run To Me..

"Over your head
Trying not to drown
Reaching for a breath
Before it drags you down
Caught in between
All the pain you feel
You lost control
You're letting go
But I never will

I'm holding on for you
I'm fighting for your life
And when you're blinded
By this jaded world
I'll be your eyes
Even if you fall
I won't let you break
When all the noise
Is telling you to run away
Run to me

Day after day
After all you've seen
It's alright if you feel like unraveling
I'll be right here
Pushing out the walls
To find a place where you can stay
Brave through it all

When I was lost
Hanging on by a thread
I knew that I could run to you
to find myself again

I'm holding on for you
I'm fighting for your life
And when you're blinded
By this jaded world
I'll be your eyes
Even when you fall
I won't let you break
When all the noise
Is telling you to run away
Run to me.."

We have always been there for one another.. So thank you dear brother..

I forgot a phrase I used to hold on to.. a saying that I made up to get me through the day..

"When all else fails,
When everyone else does not seem to care for you,
There will always be your family,
and those who consider you and you consider as family.."


So, thank you Allah for my 'brother' and also those who are dear to me.

Hajar,
Thank you for putting up with my impossible self,
Forgive me for the wrongs I did,
I love you and care for you truly,
You are dear to me.

Haziq,
Thank you for being crazy,
You make me laugh when I'm not in my best of moods,
though sometimes you can also be a pain..
Ahahahhaaa... joking.

Zikri,
you are a great brother,
Thank you for the shoulder,
Both of us hate that nasty work,
But we too, do that to one another sometimes..


For Zikri, Hajar, Haziq, Salmi, Farahin, Ainie, Cp, Shaza, Nadia, Flow, Wanie, Ezhan, Afiq(Sheikh and Dharma), Nashrah, and those whom I care, this song is for you.. You are not alone - Nick Lachey.

"Are you there
Are you gone
Do you care
Is anybody home
'Cause something's lost
In your eyes
Are you blind
Caught up in the lights

Who are you gonna call when they're coming after you,
Where are you gonna crawl when your fantasy is through
Tell me

Do you really know me
Do you really see me
when You forget fighting on your own
You are not alone

When your sky is falling
When your pain is calling
Don't forget
That I will take you home
You are not alone

When you crash
When you burn
Are you scared
Will you ever learn
'Cause there's a price
That you pay
You realize
Tomorrow's another day

You're not fighting on your own
on the day the darkness comes
I'll find you

When your sky is falling
When your pain is calling
Don't forget
That I will take you home
You are not alone.."


I may not be one of yours, but you will always be one of mine - NAS

Saturday, November 01, 2008

schMOVIEs!!

Been out with the tightest of circles and watched movies with them.. Muahahhaha...

1) Haziq wanted to wa
tch MAX PAYNE, but the show is at 9.30pm... we had more than 6 hours to kill before the show. So, we watched HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3. Yes, I watch HSM.. you got a problem?! Guess not.



2) HSM 3 is far more musical than the previous two.. Love several of the songs in there. The choreography was smokin
g HOT!! Fell in love with the very complicated choreography..
Muahahahhaha....



3) So, Haziq got to watch his MAX PAYNE after all.. I, on the other hand, fell asleep.. (Ooopss!!) ahahhahaa.. the angle and the graphics were FANTASTIC though.. Especially the graphics of those winged 'angel'.. forgot the name.. =P

4) Went to Bukit Raja again (this ti
me, with Afiq@Sheikh, Haziq and Hajar) right after Mandarin Final Paper and watched My Best Friend's Girl.. only this can show my reaction.. "MUAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA"



The movie was hilarious in a very twisted way.. for those who cannot stand profanities and explicit sordid details - this movie is a NO-NO.. but for those who are open and are able to see the comedy in the situation instead of words.. then yeah.. go for it.. ahahaha... (have always loved Kate Hudson's acting..)

5) After the movie, we hit the road and went to uptown -boring, but its the right place to kill some time-.. ahahhaa.. and then went to McD and got ourselves some frozen treats and hit the road again to wander around Shah Alam
.. then we went home.. =)


anyways, got my broadband.. hehehe.. Alhamdulillah.. =)
Thank you ma!!!