Sunday, August 31, 2008

Manusia Itu & Kesatria

Hari Jumaat yang lepas, beberapa orang komander Kesatria kompeni Pendidikan telah dinaikkan pangkat dari Komander Rendah Kanan kepada Komander Muda. Tahniah kepada mereka.

Pada hari yang sama, kami telah berlatih kawad(macam la ada benda lain yang biasa buat).. Semasa salah satu daripada Platun-Platun Lelaki berkawad, ada antara manusia dalam Skuad PERKAD mengetawakan mereka - kerana mereka bersama2 menyuarakan kata hukuman 'kiri kanan kiri', tetapi langkah mereka langsung tidak mengikut apa yang disuarakan. Aku diam.

Manusia2 yang ketawa tadi bersuara pula mengutuk sekalian ahli platun lelaki itu tadi. Kali ini aku tidak mampu berdiam diri. Aku berkata, "Tak baik ketawakan orang. Kita kawad pun teruk juga."
Manusia itu tidak puas hati apabila mendengar kata-kataku. Dia mengutuk aku diam2. Tapi dalam hatiku terdetik,"Macamlah aku tak dengar..". Namun aku senyapkan saja diriku dari mengeluarkan kata2 sinis.

Manusia tadi masih tidak puas hati. Dia bertanya pada rakan sepejuanganku(Wanie Sapari),"Dia Perkad ke?"
"A'ah.. Dia memang Perkad,"jawab Wanie. "Patutla..."balas manusia itu sambil melempar pandangan yang cukup menyakitkan hati kepadaku. "Setiap manusia tak sepi dari melakukan kesilapan. Maksud saya tadi, kita mungkin PERKAD, tapi kita pun buat salah jugak. Tak eloklah ketawakan orang lain. Saya pun buat salah masa berkawad tadi.." Aku bersuara tanpa menghiraukan pandangannya yang tajam.


Aku pelik..
Kenapa harus ketawakan orang lain?
Sedangkan kita sendiri pun tak betul..
PERKAD tahu berkawad,
Tapi sentiasa buat salah - itulah definisi 'kita lagi teruk' ku tadi...
Orang lain baru nak belajar..
Kenapa perlu patahkan semangat mereka?
Kenapa harus kau ketawakan mereka?
Kenapa perlu bangga tentang sesuatu yang bukan KAU kecapi?

Kau mengaku kau PERKAD,
Tapi kau tak pernah menonjolkan diri semasa kawad kumpulan,
Kau tak pernah memberi sokongan kepada kami seperti rakan yang lain,
Kau tak pernah berterima kasih kepada para komander yang sama berkorban untuk PERKAD.

Apa yang kau tahu pasal susah payah kami?
Apa yang kau faham tentang sakit hati kami?
Kau tak habis-habis mengutuk para Komander,
Kau memboikot ahli platun PERKAD yang bertanding untuk nama fakulti,
Kau berani gelar diri kau ahli Skuad PERKAD?!
Memalukan.
Mengaibkan.

Kau tak pernah sedar,
Kami berkawad dengan penuh semangat,
Tapi kau senantiasa memperlekehkan perpaduan kami,
Kami mencuba untuk perbaiki diri,
Kau pula tidak putus memusnahkan usaha kami.

Kami tak pernah bangga walau sesaat,
Kami sedar walaupun kami mampu berkawad,
Ada yang lebih hebat dari kami..

Sedarlah manusia,
Kau hanya menghancurkan harapan kami,
Kau hanya menyusahkan kami dengan egomu itu.
Keluarlah dari PERKAD andai kata kamu tidak mampu berubah,
Keranamu hanya akan memyebabkan kami kecundang.


Ahli PERKAD : Cukurlah janggut tu..
Manusia itu : Ala.. takde style la..

Kamu yang lain faham tak perasaan aku?
Kau ingat Kesatria ni benda untuk stylo-stylo ke?
Kau ingat Padang Kawad nih "Runway Stage" ke?!
Ei... tolonglah faham manusia...
Aku makin menyampah..
Aku yakin orang lain pun menyampah..
Cuma kau je fikir yang kau tu "COOL"...
Tolongla... eeewwww...

Aku EMO

Aku TERTEKAN!!

Aku sedang menonton televisyen sambil makan meehoon goreng yang baru dibeli.
Adala iklan Petronas ni disiarkan dimana kanak2 itu sentiasa berfikiran kreatif dalam cuba mendapatkan apa yang diingini.. Sedang aku tonton - tak tonton, tonton - tak tonton... Tiba-tiba aku emosi dan hampir mengalirkan air mata melihat pengorbanan orang tuanya yang sanggup hidup susah agar anak muda itu dapat masuk Universiti.


Selama ni, apabila si anak meminta sesuatu, si bapa akan berkata "kalaulah abah ada banyak duit, jangankan ..., .... pun abah boleh beli untuk Aiman." Suatu hari, apabila Aiman(si anak) dapat surat tawaran dari Universiti, dia berkata diam2 kepada bapanya, "Abah, kalau Aiman nak masuk Universiti, boleh tak?" Aiman tertunduk menunggu jawapan dari si bapa yang sentiasa memberi respon negatif. Si bapa mendiamkan diri.

Kemudian, si bapa mengeluarkan sebuah buku bank dan membuka ke satu halaman yang menunjukkan Ringgit malaysia 5 angka buat perbelanjaan si anak untuk ke menara gading.. Saat ini dadaku pedih. Aku sedih. Aku terdiam. Aku terpaku.

Sesungguhnya, pengorbanan orang tua kita tiada penghujungnya...

P/S : Aku suka iklan itu walaupun aku emosi.. Waahahahhahahahahahhaaa!!!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Say WhaT???!!!

1) Yesterday I went to eat Pizza with Hajar, Amar and Haziq.. After finishing two pizzas, 5 breadstix, a jug of pepsi, and 3 mushroom soup(mine was still not finished at that time)..
There were still 3 breadstix left. All in different sizes..I stared at them.. Suddenly..

Say WhaT?! 1
H : Small. Medium. LARGE.
(Laugh..laugh.. took the smallest.. was damn full at that moment..)
H : 5 inches..
(almost choked..)
(hahahaa)
K : 5 inches tu apa?
(.....)
(hahahahahaaaa)
N : Amar tau, kitorg cakap pasal apa?
A : ....tau...
(dip the breadstix into the soup)
N : French eclair..loaded with cream..
K : Hah? Apa tuh?
Everyone : haih....
...Finish eating...
H : Puas tak? Tak puas kan?
(Muahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahahhaaaaa!!!)
A : A'ah..tapi da tak larat..

cut the two breadstix into half each = 4. One for Amar, one for Haziq, One for Hajar and one for moi.. hehehe..
N : Amar.. LARGE ye?
H : Aku ambik bahagian paling mencabar skali..(Large too)
E : ......
H : A Mouthfull..
E : hehehehee(penat ketawa)


Do you have any idea what we were talking about?
Hahahahahhaaaa...
* you have to be in the real situation to really know and experience the dirty little looks and laughter that drove us up the wall(of hysterical happiness)..hehehhee..

2) Out of nowhere, we went to HIGH HILL... hehhee..(Bukit Tinggi).. While we were there, bought myself a mat, a cute box and spend my dimes on games like shooting hoops..(penat giler..nak2 main 3 games straight..da la tinggi n jauh hoop tuh..huhu) and car race.. (lost to Hajar..damn!!) hahahahaa.. but then, I cant even drive a car..hehehhee..

Say WhaT?! 2
H : I don't play balls.. any kind of balls..
N : Hahahahahhaa
H : Just to be clear...

Say WhaT?! 3
"... I'm a genie in a bottle, You gotta rub me the right way..."

H : Nak rub kat mana?
E : ...
E : hahahahahahhaaaa...
N : depends on the one receiving the rub, and the one giving..
H : Kalau pompuan?
N : Kat mana dia nak?
H : Kalau lelaki?
E : ...... (laugh..laugh)

* A hell lot more..but tak larat type..
and the conversations are not accurate, but the terms used are there..

Greeniey on the phone with his girl..
A : Abang kat pizza ni..
(Everyone tgh tahan ketawa...)
A : Kita message eh?
(tahan tahan ketawa..tahan semua org..)
A : Sayang awak..
(tak tahan..ketawa senyap2)
A : Mmuuahh..
E : Wahahahhahahaahahahhahahahahahhahahaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(p/s: sgt comel cara dia bercakap.. but you dont really expect HIM saying the last expression "mmuuahh".. took us all by surprise and had a real good laugh bout it...)



Play Safe

Well, it's been awhile since I've been thinking bout changing my blog's description and name.
Thought about using "PLAY SAFE"..but it is already a brand's tagline..so..no fun..

But I like that tag because it seems applicable with the life I'm leading now..

NO!!

Not THAT play...
(Eewww.. you're so blue..)

And no, its not even a drama play..

Just PLAY..

Playing in the sun
Playing underneath the blue sky
Playing in the rain
Play bowling
Play computer games
Play basketball.. (huh, you did not think I could, did you?)
Play with little kids and babies (to make them laugh)
Play with little and big kitties

PLAY...

Of course, there is also
Playing with my own heart
Playing around when I'm supposed to be studying
Playing with other people's innocence..
Play with words to avoid boredom
Play around like a fool at the mall

.....

SAFE...?

We always need to be careful when playing..
So you will not get hurt..

You play with other people's innocence
Careful so you do not bruise their ego
You play with your own heart
Careful so you will not get burned
You play in the rain
Careful so you will not get sick
You play bowling
Careful not to attempt throwing balls you can't even lift
You play with words
Careful so you will not be misunderstood

....

That's enough I think..
But then, it is not fun to sort of 'stealing' others' tagline..

So NOT original..
So NOT me..

Sticking to the current one for awhile..
Muahahahahaha!!!

Sunday, August 24, 2008

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Friday, August 15, 2008

7 THINGS


1) ANOTHER STEP BACK
I really hate this. Everytime I bond with someone, there will always be people who want to destroy it. Just because I understand and am fond of this one particular person, doesnt mean that I love him. He is a friend. But since people wouldnt leave us alone, I'm taking a step back from him.

2) BEL422
My work is finally done!! Yes!!!! Muahahahahahhahaaaa.... Alhamdulillah.. had been through hell these past few days trying to get it over with.. Now that it is finally finished, I am so relieved... The bad thing is that I had to come up with several questions on my own eventhough this was supposedly a CLASS work. Am really tired, just wanna forget this crap..huhu..

3) "NO MANNERS AT ALL"
My friend's ex called her number. She left her phone behind. It was ringing nonstop and DAMN right it was ANNOYING!!!! was having a freaking discussion for God's sake. I picked up. Didn't hear what he said. I told him to call back cause the one he's looking for is not around. I hung up cause the line was bad, and DUDE!! STOP MUMBLING!! I do not understand idiots who mumble all the time. I just cannot comprehend a word you said. He called again. I said my friend is in the toilet. We're having a discussion. Call back.

You know what that idiot(sorry kyan) said to me?! "Kurang ajar. No manners at all". Mind you, I do not know this guy, neither does he me. How dare he said that to me. Being me, I did not say anything and just HANG UP!! MUAHAHHAHAHAAA!!! YES!! I DON'T HAVE MANNERS. NOT TO YOU ANYWAY!!! Who the HELL do you think you are? I am not my friend who can stand you or have the patience to just talk to you. So, BACK OFF!!! Sorry kyan, but I am still upset about this.


4) "FRIEND"
A friend who said a little something that made me realize that I am not that welcomed in her home or place. Spoiled my appetite. Did not eat that day..


5) MONEY
Spent RM 400 in less than 2 weeks. Really don't know what happened to me..huhu..

6) PHONE
Freaking my phone kept ringing almost every night these past two weeks. Really annoying. I was trying to rest and sleep you ignorant people!!! Don't you know what time you guys were calling me?!!! ARGHHHH!!!! Really hate that.. huhu...

7) BOYS, JERKS, GENTLEMEN
I've met several jerks these past two weeks. really irritating. Boys.. got myself several eyecandies.. Muahahahahahaha!!! Takderla bosan sangat kat fakulti tuh nanti..hehehe.. Gentlemen? Still in search cause I haven't seen any.. ahahahahaa...

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Penatnya....

Well, today had been quite a hectic day..
Was really annoyed by some people..
that group has no respect for another, but they expect others to respect them..
how ironic..
how pathetic..

I am really tired..
I just want to sleep..
but right now, I have things to do..
Questionnaires to finalize,
Mandarin homework to finish,
Ed Psych to be planned..
etc
etc
etc...

My friend Haziq was not in class today..
I am still worried..
He was down yesterday..
I wonder why..
I hope he is fine..

On the other hand,
I am hoping that the one who messed with me is sick!!
I officially hate him now.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Bad Girl

I've been thinking lately.. I'm really sick and tired of being the good girl and got nothing in return..
Maybe I should turn bad.. for a while, and bad within certain limits.. not bad bad..hehehe..

For the past few weeks, been playing the role of a very sexually-based-man.. dont know why I always got that part.. I'm a woman.. can I play my part..?huhu..but it was fun though..getting to play the bad ass every once and awhile.. must be out of my right mind... muahahhahahhaaaa!!!

It is currently 3:31 am..
Wayyyyyy past my bed time..
result?Cannot sleep..
huhu...

Honestly, I'm pretty much getting sick of having to say sorry over silly and nonsensical things.. some of the things I did not even do.. It is REALLY annoying..

But then, my mom raised me right.. to be a good child.. so say Sorry, even when the fault isn't yours..
hahahahhahaa...

Saturday, August 02, 2008

Hanging Out

The pictures below are taken a week ago while we were hanging out at the education cafe..

Peace hones..


My friend, Hajar.. dreaming about her 'sun', a person she always refer to as "matahariku"


Me, making faces and wandering which would scare the creeps out of the person I want to ditch.. Just joking.. was fooling around with my bro's vidcam..hehehe


Kakakku Shud... sedang berbahagia disamping kekasih hati..
(yang kat bawah ni ha..)

Abangku Pieey.. komander saya dalam Kesatria..

10 Things Less Than A Week


1) My second ex just claimed me as his girlfriend - without my consent.. all of the sudden I am not single anymore..

2) Abah my beau masuk hospital..kat Johor.. kemungkinan tgh koma..

3) My beau kena jaga abah.. Jadi saya tak mampu untuk mengatakan bahawa menyayangi dia sangat menyakitkan.. Let me go if he's not going to stay true to me, let me go if he's not going to be there for me, let me go if he's going to change his heart over time..

4) Saya demam hampir seminggu da nih.. sampai ke tulang sakitnya.. ditambah dengan tarian mekar dan drama dan juga kawad Perkad.. macam nak tercabut tulang2ku..huhu..

5) Saya kecewa dengan seorang 'kawan' saya ini.. Dia seolah-olah mempergunakan saya..

6) I've got to know a cold hard truth several days back.. OuCh!!!!

7) Kami pergi main bowling hari Isnin lepas..best..tapi sakit segala sendi sebab saya demam panas..

8) Selasa.. Saya, Haziq, Azri dan Fira stayed up hampir 1 pagi kot kat Bistro 18 menyiapkan questionnaire BEL.. Fira sampai tertido, saya yang tengah sakit nih sampai masuk air..huhu.. Tapi Alhamdulillah, siap juga.. sempat tengok Dracula - Dead and Loving It.. hahahahaha...

9) Rabu.. Benda tak best, saya tertinggal file BEL di rumah, terpaksa naik laju2 tahan pening nak pitam naik penthouse untuk mengambilnya, dan seperti yang saya jangka, file tu tak digunakan pun..huhu.. Lepas tu, setelah kami berpenat semalam.. Kami dapat tahu yang Lecturer tak nak pun questionnaire tuh.. Sakitnya hati saya...

10) Khamis dan Jumaat.. nak pengsan rasanya..sebab penat tahap maksima..huhu.. Kesengalan tulang dan kesakitan otot semakin dirasai.. Masa PERKAD, Komander kami terlupa beri kami masa rehat.. Kami semua tak berani cakap sebab masa tu masa pemilihan.. Jadinya, saya pun diamkan je sakit tak boleh nafas.. Kuasa Allah, saya tak pengsan.. Alhamdulillah.. Tapi seperti biasa, nak tercabut sendi2 time kawad tuh..huhu..