TREACHEROUS SOLITUDE

TREACHEROUS SOLITUDE
ORIGINALLY COMPOSED BY :
NUR AFIQAH BINTI SUHAIMI (NAS)

Swimming in seas of lies
Drowning under the white vicious claws
Consumed in a deceitful life
Suffocate beneath the silence mask of flaws

Flowers of trust silently murdered
Burning in flames, inferno of hatred
Thunder booms as truth uncovered
Pearls of tears, vision now blinded

Hush my dear, A hiss in my ear
Red taints the clear, Bleeding in fear
Triumph in pride, Coiling in sneer
Darkness devour light, loved hearts veer

Films of memory I will never forsake
Still an icy, winter frozen lake
Words preached winding, honesty vague
Angst and betrayal an unstoppable plague

Cold and lifeless, wind breathes near
Golden blue the scent of sheer
Alone and breathless with a painful sear
Like a ship of death vacant eyes steer.

p/s : those who wants to use this poetry(for blog, etc), please inform me first. Thank you for your co-operation.

For you, Beautiful Disaster

still waiting
still hoping
still praying
for you my love
to come back home
to come back to me
to love me
still searching
still believing
holding on to my faith tightly
so you'll find your way back
so you'll be safe even through the darkest night
so you'll be here with me until the end of time..

until the day i die
you'll be on my mind
the first and last bind
lost love i would find
until you finally be mine
i'll stand in the first line
and wait patiently for you, my life
until the very end of time...

MEdSI Horror!

19 April 2007
The day I had MEdSI interview, along with other pre-degree TESL in Shah Alam. I found out I was the only one to say I would go to UPSI if I couldn't embark on my degree program here in Shah Alam. The whole Goddamn class said UIA.. oh my god! To make things worse, I got to know that UPSI is in Tanjung Malim which is located in PERAK! ARGHHH!!! Being the person I am, I couldn't care less where the place is as long as it is there, and I'm not.. what I'm trying to say is that I suck in Geography... Hu... Why now?

Right before my interview, I cried... I heard that the person I love got the part in a play, bigger than Dielle(god knows what the title is).. and I cried but I didn't know why.. Heck! I still have no idea why I cried... All I know is that the feelings hid were too much and they consumed me.. I really want to say "CONGRATULATIONS xxxx! I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!" but then again.. who am I to say so? I've told him before(when we were still together) time and time again, "You have so many talents, yet you ignore them. You have so much to give and gifts can be shared, yet you hide them." But I'm not sure if he remembers.

All I am to him is NOTHING.. I don't mean a thing.. I was just a lay.. The person he wanted all along was her. Now he has the chance, he's using it.. but does he know, that she doesn't love him? She, who I thought a friend now becomes my worst nightmare. But hell.. I will become hers, sooner or later. What goes around comes around girl. I don't have to do anything. Justice will prevail itself.