embrace wonders~

thank you 'Ain.. that was pure warmth and care.

thank you for that.
you strengthen my belief - there IS warmth even in the midst of horrid winter..
and sometimes it lies within the arms of a stranger..
little surprises you find in other than those close to you.

*not that you're a stranger..
but thank you~

that was the first I receive over the years I am in Shah Alam. It's pathetic. but it's more terrifying.. to not experience that.. tired of being the one who soothes without anyone soothing me..

so you see, a warm sincere embrace CAN make it better~

erk~

"Yup. I like your title. Proceed with the brief summary."

Okay.. but which title dr.?
I've submitted two topics..

and what brief summary?
the one with the very brief summary..
or am I supposed to do a brief summary?

???

T_T

but.. YES!! my topic(s) is/are approved..
lalalala~ lepas satu kerja.
Alhamdulillah~
hahaha~

underlying meaning

"I'm in love with a vampire ..."

But what I didn't tell you, sir..
is that the vampire I mentioned is a substitute of a REAL LIFE MAN.

In other words.. it's just a symbol I use to represent someone.

Look at it this way,
A vampire demands everything from you, but they give nothing in return - Just like him.. he took everything that I had to offer.. but he never gave anything to me.

A vampire lures you in with their mysteriously attractive yet dangerously compelling aura - He was exactly that and I lost my head when I was with him..

A vampire is an immortal, an undead creature - his memories linger.. they live on even long after I die..

A vampire sucks the life out of you - He killed me. metaphorically and literally speaking.


So, you see, sir.. he's not much different from a vampire..
but then again, you'll never know this little secret.. XD

He's my beautiful disaster,
He's my own personal sin,
He's the vampire after my heart~

.nas.tuesday140720092120.

not quite true~

it's not that I don't want to.
but he had me so low I don't think I can get through another heartache again.

"never assume things.. for truths often contradict assumptions.. - nas"
and he never really meant what he said.

the prospect and the thought of THAT hurts..
it just hurts.

bubbles burst!

went to a shopping spree with shaza and wanie..
bought lipbalm, lipgloss, a magazine, A Thousand Splendid Suns, a shirt, few groceries and a pillow for my butt~

was ultimately tired and perfectly happy~
muahahahhahaa..

got back home, saw a pair of my shoe was missing..
and POMM!!
happy bubbles no more..

searched for them high and low..
ended up texting a person who I suspected was wearing them..

guess what.
"I pinjam kasut you.. lupa nak cakap.."

wait.

Lemme get this straight..
you wore MY shoes, and you FORGOT about it?
fantastic~

damn it woman!
first.. ask for permission.
second, your feet is nowhere near my size.
sure.. our feet has the approximately same length..
but NOT the same width..

no wonder la I felt as if my shoes were battered and they didn't fit me anymore because apparently, someone's been wearing them..

you also finished my several other household items..
care to replace them?
or should I be real NASTY about it until we won't speak to one another for the whole damned semester?!!

overboard attitude

Perlu ke macam tu sekali?
Awak ingat itu kejujuran la?
dan awak ingat persahabatan tu untuk sementara la?

Was I just another convenience for you like the others?
I truly cared for you..
but you kept throwing it back in my face.

f.i.n.e.

I'll leave. and you know what?
I'm never coming back~

so.. like you said, "just face it!"

Bulan

"The Moon Collapsed.. and the Memories came back - nas"

I hate that.
My head aches.
My heart hurts.

*The love may be DEAD.
But the memories linger.
They haunt.
They taunt.
Moving on is not forgetting.
Remembrance is just another curse to me~

.nas.